squeaking out something

i have spent a great deal of my energy and hours reading and learning designing how to make your own website and this is what i have managed to squeak out a few things about the last few days i found little energy or need to Imagepunctuate much exhausted from the last nine|9 months of running around typing chasing after my two dogs answering a telephone looking at one pretty large computer screen grocery shopping almost showering shopping the net facebooking accepting twitters followers and following planning something for saturday walking the dogs kissing my husband cooking something for dinner eating it going to back to that pretty large computer for six more hours going bed after 2am waking to coffee bed at 8am my one Alleluia! and pass the amunitions replying emails sending emails walking to get snail mails cursing my neighbors dogs pooping cutting my hair to scalp drinking and drinking again waving good bye and hello to husband having very brief conversation w/people i’ve never met hope to never see again washing one dog sending other to see a shrink i mean me play catch wwith my dogs no not my husband kissing again watching something strange in the sky oh it was a plane washing dishes closing windows back to the pretty big computer screen stay for a while working on website again I found one for almost free almost beat out of 1000 bucks phew got out of that one will not tell husband bother his peace for once talked to a real person well i thought he was real want to stop typing but i am unable to control my fingers ooops i am without a bra forgot must create a descent website for acting career sitting too long again my dogs are barking no not my feet my dogs are barking want to take a poop on neighbour’s lawn again oh shit here we go again …


It’s Time to Take Over The Business!

           OVER NEW YEARS DAY DINNER, my husband and I were talking about my Film Acting career, and where I saw myself in five, six, seven years? That really MADE ME THINK!  I thought to myself, my career is not where I hoped after two years. Then . . I softly admit  to my husband, “Well, my career hasn’t been moving as quickl as I thought it would; however, there has been some BRIGHT moments: well, I worked as a Supporting Actor, once I played LEAD, but most of my contact in the Industry as been as an EXTRA.

      ON THE POSITIVE side, I have made some pretty BIG INVESTMENTS in my CAREER, i.e., a WEBSite, something have  86% of ACTORS doesn’t have, also,I invested in an On-Line Resume|Headshot Site, I’ve been able to collect various HEAD-SHOTS/Character . . . sides of my personality I call them). As I see as a BONUS, I’ve collected lots of KARMA LOVE, from those in the INDUSTRY.

It's time.

It’s time.

      AFTER WE finished the main course, then during dessert, “At this time in my life Grove, “I feel I must, HAVE 2DO SOMEThing BiG, he gave me a strange, but loving look, I continue, You know Baby? I’m not getting the RESPONSE I thought a. . . I’m not sure what’s wrong?”

     HE GAVE ME the “Look” again, I answered with a firm “NO, Noooo, NOT THAT!”  We laughed, then continued to talk through our dessert, taking small bites at a time. I stop for a moment and say, “This time around, I have to GO for it Baby!  Then the ‘LOOK,’ again.  I continue, “I HAVE to do something BiG! Something DIFFERENT! Something UNEXPECTED!”

      I AM SICK and tired of I standing-on-the-sideline watching others ‘Do Their THANG.’ Waiting, watching, just like when I was on the high school basketball team. I sat the bench three fourths of the games. Watching the game from the BENCH.  WELL this time I WILL be in the GAME!. SO put me in COACH, I’M READY TO PLAY! THEN hope like HELL they PICK ME for the ROLE after working my ASS-Off the weeks before

      Most professional know there’s a great deal, and a great deal of time that goes into preparing for an Audition. Oftentimes I travel quite a distance for an Audition; sometimes close to 30, 40 miles; spending days, weeks with the SIDES memorizing lines, (if they had any), putting hours into developing the character I am Auditioning for, and if it’s two? Well double that time of work.  Not to mention the amount of time, sometimes money, that accompanies selecting wardrobe to a particular character, in an Audition.


     THE TECHNIQUES an ACTOR goes through to present a 30-40 second PERFORMANCE in an AUDITION, is mind blowing. And just imagine, we do this over and over again, until we find work!  AFTER delivering the BEST darn AUDITION they have EVAH seen, I’m home waiting, HOPING they PICK ME! for the ROLe. It can be exhausting, but it’s all pleasure for this Actor.

      I WANT, NO!  I need to be in CONTROL of my career.  I’ve been around, this business for a while. I’ve observed professionals working in their line of work.  I feel I  have what it takes to SHOOT a FILM, to EDIT a film, to WRITE a SCREEN PLAY -the skills I am

     WHEN I LEAVE this planet, I want to leave a piece of me! I want to be remembered doing something I LOVE!  This is going to sound quite morbid, but one of the items on my ____ List is TO BE ON TCM’s EULOGY FILM as the beautiful homage type music softly whispers in the background. My contemporaries PORTRAITS followING mine, signifying I was in GOOD COMPANY.  I DESire to be remembered as an ACTRESS … Doing EXACTLY what she loved in her profession!!  An OPPORTunity that just FELL IN MY LAP, and I plan to take full ADVANTAGE of it!

     TO TELL YOU the truth, I don’t think I could live with myself if I didn’t. SO, HERE IT IS! MY  Movie Reviewer.  I’m about to SHOOT the first segment TONIGHT. Okay, about two-three weeks ago I was RANDOMLY selected to be a SAG|Awards VOTER. ERGO, the titles.

      I’M ABOUT TO do my own THANG. I got selected by my Union|Screen ACTOR’S Guild to be a VOTer selecting winners in their a lotted categories.  WELL, I have received four nominate movies  NINE TOTAL to VOTE for BEST LEAD, Supporting, so fourth and so on.                          AINT THAT A GAS?!

     I DECIDED to BLOG my OPINIONS, and write a REVIEW a week an on camera review! YIKES! That’s, on camera, is the most challenging for me. I’ve been the consummate EXTRA for so long, and now I have made my opportunity, via, SAG, and NOW, I’M about to TAKE CENTER STAGE, or for the movies, THE LEADING ROLE.  I feel excited and challenged!

     IF YOU ARE interested in viewing my Video BLOGs, check back later on my Facebook, or TWITTER for further information!

     THANKS for spending your time with me.  Have a beautiful  BLESSed day!

*Look for more interesting reading soon!

It’s the first of the year, and I haven’t done a damn thing!

It’s the first of the year, and I haven’t done a damn thing!

#1|REF!I woke up at the crack of 11 AM, and I insisted that my blindness remain closed. My dogs jump up to greet me, then I cover their heads with a blanket they fall back to sleep. I get to work writing all day! All day I write. The Inspiration to write is present all day.  I think if I don’t listen to this inspiration to write, I’m sure the writing gods will punish me! Punish me by having these days further apart. I’m almost sure of that.  So I listen, and I write.

Not stopping to bath.  Not stopping to put on a bra.  Not stopping to eat breakfast, except I did have coffee and some kind of snack? w, I haven’t felt hungry. All I feel is writing! I can’t stop this feeling! I do not want to stop this feeling because the days are so far and few in between.

For a long time I’ve been wanting to do just five minutes of standup. Since , I’ve been wondering what piece would I open with ? It’s all about the opening! And closing, what you do I between really doesn’t matter. Just mak’em laugh! I see Donald O’Conner and Gene Kelly singing! Mak’em laugh! Mak’em Laugh! This song keeps running through my brain.

For long time, I’ve been thinking how would I open? After I introduced myself and I’m standing there alone on the stage with a mike in my hand, what would I say?  I’m looking at four, five or six people drinking smoking drunk laughing . . . what I say? What would I say?

AND TODAY! I discovered the perfect opening! Or more appropriately, the perfect opening came to me in the kitchen with my husband! It was perfect! I was about to prepare clothes for washing.  They had to wait. I sneak away to our bedroom, with the blinds still closed and listen to my MUSE!  My VERY OWN MUSE! She is talking directly to me!  And I love it!  Well that’s all for now. I do have to take a break to feed my husband and my babies SAM & Buddy.

Thank you for reading my work.  Please come back! I promise to have something maybe more interesting to read . . . That’s if I l continue listen to my MUSE.

Good Night from the Garvin House!